Dream house
These are the plans for a home I'd like to build. If I have more children, I can just add some outbuildings or something for the older ones. I like that it's not huge. There isn't a lot of space for uneeded stuff to pile up. Any architects out there who'd like to lend a hand? :^) (And maybe a strong group of men to help me dig!)
In a fog
I woke up this morning in a cloud and the world seems muffled and soupy. It a disorienting, wonderful feeling, as you breathe and drink the air all at once, stumbling around in lucid blindness. 
Good show
Centrifugal force
It seems the parents are fighting again. I'm too old to be worried about major life changes due to them splitting up. It's not like I'm 10 and entirely dependant. But still, I don't believe in divorce. That doesn't mean it doesn't exist, but it seems strange that my Catholic parents would want to split up and just ignore the whole mortal sin, illegal stuff they supposedly believe in. It's a very confusing thing for me, this bureauocracy (sp?) of religion.
But most of all, I'm saddened. With my teenage sister acting up, and my parents fighting, I feel as though they're all going in their own directions and I'm the one that's going to be left standing around, wondering where my family went.
I suppose this is intended to make me stronger. Or at least more patient. I could use a vacation, though.
A breath of fresh air
Nice to hear that people chose wisely and The Daily Show won once again at the Emmys. Then again, something I heard from Ellen Degeneres put is succinctly: people don't need awards to validate them. Your self worth should be from what you think about yourself. And you'll have a better opinion of yourself if you win.
Last night I spent my pre sleeping hours with Rodney Yee for a well deserved meditation session. Who knew breathing could be so wonderful? Thanks, pal.
Echo
With the vastness of the internet, at times I feel as though I am talking to myself....
As of late: I couldn't keep up the mantra for more than 20 days. The idea of spending all that mental energy on myself and for a selfish thing like a man was just too ego-centric when there are millions who need that energy more than I do. Besides, all I've gotten is heartbreak anyway. Why pray for more? So I think I'll change it, focusing on developing boddhichitta instead of selfishness.
What can one say?
In my household, CNN is a big thing. We actually have 2 CNN channels! (Satellite). Anyway, I don't know quite what to say about this whole mess that's happened.
Yesterday, in my China studies class, we learned about Confucianism and one principal stood out in my mind. There was an idea that if the leaders or rulers of a country were out of balence or alignment and had become corrupt, then nature would reflect (violently) the collective anger with the ruler. Christians would chalk this up to being the wrath of God. I'm not sure what Buddhists would say about it.
This Buddhist has some evacuees coming to her town and being sheltered at an old nursing home three houses down from where she lives. And I'm going to do everything I can to help.