Whispering Wind

zombie day. It's like that movie the Day After Tomorrow. It's like twilight all the time. Eiigghh. Thats why I have my frinds the scarf and my hot chocolate. That'll all for today. It'm not going to try to say something profound because I'm functioning at a hot chocolate level and that's about it.

Yes the new look is done. Not exactly what I was originally planning on, but I like the way it looks now. I suppose the key for making it look nice is less is more. It took me a while to understand that blogs need simplicity. Clutter is just too distracting.
I woke up at 5:20 this morning to get on the bus at 6:20. I've never seen the sun rise like that before. Since it's another cloudy, cold midwest winter day the sun didn't actually rise but more like the day got lighter and lighter and then it just was day. It wasn't like I could see the actual disk of the sun rise. I feel isolated. Somehow I'm running fine on adrenaline and one egg-free milk-free vegan waffle. I have a feeling once I get to my classes and the teachers beging their droning about things I already know, I'll space out big time. I put plenty of lined paper in my binder today so I'll just write whatever comes to my head while they talk.
I should probably get out of the computer lab. I've been here since 7 typing my final speech and its now almost 9. I should leave before they start looking at me funny.

I'm working on a new look and its in the process so excuse the hideousness that I'm attempting to pass off as coordination untill I get to a computer and rework the color scheme.

I feel fat. This must be why New Year's resolutions concerning weight are so important. I also feel lonely. Holidays can be depressing when the media demotes them to a frenzy of capitalism that convinces people that without a relationship in which you are given earrings, your life is without meaning. I feel like an alien.

Well, I've decided to do Tommy. So there. Got in a car wreck yesterday. It was her fault. Totally her fault. :evil: So now I have a messed up arm, no car, and nothing to do for thanksgiving. Grr. I'll feed myself tofurky and watch the Wizard of Oz on tv with soy ice cream I think. I just got one of those magnetric poetry thingys for the fridge or wherever magnets stick so I'll probably mess with that. That and my tarot cards could keep me occupied for hours.
I'm just full of random thoughts today. I think I'll dye my hair. Or fast. Or go vegan thanksgiving shopping. Who knows. I can go as far as the public transportation system will take me. I never thought it would come to me riding the bus by necessity and not by choice. Those body shop people better get the car done soon. Whaaa.. I miss the Canadavan. (For those of you who have no idea what I drive it's a Neo hippy van that happens to have lots of stickers on it one of which being the flag of the greatest country in the world! (O Canada) which matches the exterior (red). It was my pseudo home and I miss it.

 

Feedback needed- :) I'm trying to decide which show to do next- Cats or The Who's Tommy. Opinions? I can't do both because they'd overlap. Cats...

Or Tommy?

I can't believe Hair performances are over. It was like summer camp. You go there knowing no one and being nervous, not knowing what to expect, then bond with people and they become like family. You laugh, cry, and fight with each other. Then its time to leave and it seems all too soon. It's going to be very interesting geting back to a work and school only schedule. Maybe I'll stick some yoga or rich kid babysitting in there. I can't believe 10 bucks an hour is normal for a babysitter. I used to get 2. Then again I am a pushover to avoid conflict. "Back to school, back to school, to show my daddy I'm not a fool..."

Talked to Jessica a bit today. I think I feel better about everything now I have a sense of who I am. Defining yourself by who you are around and what they do is never a good idea.
My mother is depressed. She thinks I 'm moving out because I hate her or beacause everything she taught me is for nothing. Dead wrong. I'm moving out because she taught me independance and now I have to live it.

A Billy Joel song comes to mind-
Anthony works in the grocery store
Savin' his pennies for someday
Mama Leone left a note on the door,
She said,
"Sonny, move out to the country."
Workin' too hard can give me
A heart attack
You oughta know by now
Who needs a house out in Hackensack?
Is that what you get with your money?

It seems such a waste of time
If that's what it's all about
If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.

Sergeant O'Leary is walkin' the beat
At night he becomes a bartender
He works at Mister Cacciatore's down
On Sullivan Street
Across from the medical center
He's tradin' in his Chevy for a Cadillac
You oughta know by now
And if he can't drive
With a broken back
At least he can polish the fenders

It seems such a waste of time
If that's what it's all about
If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out.

YOU ARE CATNIP

I've become irritated with human beings lately. Don't know why. Maybe It's just a temporary want-to-crawl-into-a-dark -corner-and-curl-into-a-b all stage. Bad day today. Nothing really horrible happened per se, but I just feel ugly. Need a fresh start I think.

Political sermon-blah blah blah vote for Kerry blah blah blah. I did my patriotic duty. You do yours. Please. For the sake of the children!!! :)

Had my first dress rehearsal yesterday. Funny, but I wore pretty much what I wear everyday and my friends in the cast kept asking me where I got the idea for my costume. It's raining again. Good thing is Speech class got out way early so I can go home and get ready for work and rehearsal in a much more relaxed fashion.
I went wild and watched the rest of my Mork and Mindy DVD. Whoo ho. It makes me wish they'd come out with the next season.
Wore my I heart Nerds t-shirt to school today. Makes me feel special.
Who am I kidding? I am TIRED. They should have a smiley for sleeping. Going home to get some beauty sleep-